Strugglin' - A-Wax, Young Gully

Everyone around me is still strugglin'

How am I supposed ta ever stop hustlin'?

When my partna got killed by my otha one

Who just walks around town like it wasn’t him

Rap music, sellin' dope, still jugglin'

Last time the feds hit, lost a dozen men

Saw my partna try hard ta turn his life around

Only to have police plant drugs on him

Such a cold world

If rappin' was more brackin', I could finally quit trappin'

But it isn’t, so I can’t, wishin' for another chance

Puttin' off college, to be pushin' narcotics

Like it’s really my job, need to really find God

But I don’t know his address, put it in the MapQuest

Nothin' popped up, maybe hell is locked up

And heaven is freedom, said you bet I’ma beat 'em

Touch my fam in the morning and you’ll be dead by this evenin'

I’m overworked, underpaid.

One foot on Earth, one in the grave

Runnin' work, stomach in pain, from hunger pangs

Gotta go get it, so underprivileged, growing up with bad intentions

It’s no wonder I was sentenced, to the can

Came out with a chip on my shoulder

She was tryin' to fall in love, told that bitch I’m a soldier

I don’t know what we gon' do if this shit gets any colder

California probably shoulda been split like Dakota

I won’t lose, I won’t cry tears

Devil all in my ideas

Open up your eyelids

Emotions, she just can’t hide his

Maybe I should die today

Suicide should find a way

To take me out the atmosphere

To death I will not shy away

Maybe I should quit the rap.

Go get the strap, go flip a pack

They told me since I took a fall, I can’t get my position back

Want to live in opulence.

Can’t breathe, need antioxidants

I’m just another occupant, in hell’s office, should I repent?

Inhalin' smoke to keep me calm, knowin' I might just self-destruct

Goddess was nowhere in sight, my lifestyle wasn’t helping much

Snakes under my lawnmower, I only got myself to trust

Lost it in these cold streets, the hustle fast, I felt the rush

Spent it all, I coulda saved.

Wildin', I know I should behave

Coppers cuffin' niggas wrists, got my entire hood enslaved

Starin' down this highway, seein' all the roads I couldn’t pave

Get your heart Gully, get your heart, 'cause you don’t look as brave

Dog I think you gettin' soft, people think you livin' lost

I’m just tryin' to find a bridge, hopefully I get across

Thoughts been all over the place, I should have left 'em in the vault

Obstacles deflate your drive and mine won’t turn its engine off

Gully!