Again - AV

I’m writing this letter to you

The only purpose is to tell the truth

Rather be dead than abandoned alive

Have a real job than work 9−5

Making the minimum wage

I’d rather be up on a stage

In front of fans

Tell me why I’m a different man

And this past year has changed me

I gotta life to live

But I’m confused with what I’m chasing

Searching for something that’s real and not fake

If fake’s what I’m after, I’ll drown in a lake

I risking it all for every chance that I take

As I’m writing this down, I have a headache

Writing these lyrics is dangerous enough

There’s people around me, they’re calling bluff

On my intuition, and my dedication

To pouring myself out on this paper

Where will I be, half a year later

Where the heck will I be, half a year later

I’m scared of getting close, in the end comatose

Don’t wanna end up like the rest, overkilling overdose

Almost lost too many people

What’s the point of friends

If they’re not there for you in the end

I’m fallen short

I’ve been lied to now

I’ve lost all my hope, in you

But at least I tried

Until the day I die

Would it matter if I cried

I guess it’s my story

I guess that I’m boring

I guess that I’ll never make it

If I was just truly given the chance, chances are I would take it

I get scared sometimes of the outcome

But half the time I’m wondering how come

With every problem I face, I reply with some laughter

Living my life, is a mask what I’m after

I said living my life, is a mask what I’m after

Restrained to my room, do I really matter

Depression it kills a man, leaves him so scattered

If I need some faith I’ll take a leap of it

At the same time, don’t know if the problem is

Worth it, should I even take the chance

Every moment that I catch that feels like some happiness

Turns into death, but I’ll capture it

I guess some people aren’t meant to be happy

Everyday, I wake up with a dream

Should I be honest

Let’s face it, can I even handle it

If I had true happiness, could I manage it

Life is short

They always tell me

I despise people that pretend to know me

If you were there through the pain

You’ll be here for the gain

Maybe one day, you’ll be hearing my name

Maybe one day, you’ll be hearing my name

Have you ever lost a friend, well it sucks

Chances are, you were counting on them

To be in your life, for every milestone

And everytime, you’re beat down to the bone

But life as it is, they cease to exist

Denying they’re gone, you start to resist

Screaming out loud, you hold out a fist

Welcome to life, the endless abyss

Welcome to life, the endless abyss

I’m fallen short

I’ve been lied to now

I’ve lost all my hope, in you

But at least I tried

Until the day I die

Would it matter if I cried

I forget I fall

Would’ve bled out too

Would’ve held my arms out

Till they gave out

I have nothing to lose

But it’s your choice to choose

Would I be better off alone