Count 'Em Down - Bellows

Life goes on

After the thing you thought was life has gone

I’m so surprised to wake up with a human face still

In the back of my mind, I feel I’ve left something behind

And time moves along, yes

After the thing you spent your time on is in the past

Becomes a memory one day of a happy birthday

You turned 25, feeling panic deep inside

But you hike, you are climbing and struggling and losing ground

And climbing and scrambling and falling and getting up

And shedding this darkness, material accumulation march

I need so much

Ooh, I count 'em down to zero

Ooh, I count 'em down to zero

I retain no friendship, no feigned connection

Every single tie that I hold

I count 'em down to zero

Down to zero, down to zero

Down to zero, down to zero

Down to zero, down to zero

Down to zero, down to zero

So what gives?

At the end of all of it, I acknowledge no failure

No cap to end it with

I say no

I can’t let the yearning go

I still want that rose

I thought I held it years before

You hike, you are climbing and struggling and losing ground

And climbing and scrambling and falling and getting up

And bursting this glutton, this power accumulation feast

You were told you need

Ooh, I count 'em down to zero

Ooh, I count 'em down to zero

I retain no friendship, no feigned connection

Every single tie that I hold

I count 'em down to zero

You came for it, you worked for it

Without it what’s your life for?

You came for it, you worked for it

Without it what’s your life for?

You came for it, you worked for it

Without it what’s your life for?

You came for it, you worked for it

Without it, what are you for?

Bad dream, dark rot

Half true, half not

I was only half mistaken when I looked into that hole

(Saw what the shadow holds)

He was only half mistaken, he was only 5 years old

He was a little boy

(Didn't mean to hurt anyone)

I cleaned up in there

I packed up the bedroom and I got myself out of here

And I think back and I don’t care

I still don’t know how to talk to you when anyone else is there

(Still don’t know how to talk to you when anyone else is there)

You can’t see yourself reflected, you’re gonna need to let it go

Won’t you let it go?

If you still cannot respect it you’re gonna need to let it go

Won’t you let it go?

Every animal and baby knows what not to do

Innocent in ignorance, they don’t look at the world like you

And I’m backed up in a corner, I got no more moves

But the guilt I felt was deeper down, it had nothing to do with you

When you see that light reflected you’re gonna need to let it go

Won’t you let it go?

And though every day you try to get back on that horse and go

The horse is old

(It doesn’t serve you people, people)

When you fear that part within you, you’re gonna need to let it go

Won’t you let it go?

(Count it down to zero)

When you see that light reflected you’re gonna need to let it go

Won’t you let it go?

(Count it down to zero)

(Three, two, one)