Lose Myself - Caskey

I ain’t trying to lose myself to this famous shit

I be on one, thinking 'bout how I really need to change my shit

Look around, everything so shallow

Waking up every day is a battle

Make anybody wanna throw the towel

Yeah, not me, looking in the mirror, I see

The man right in front of me say, «I got I-T»

They trying to stop the wave, I’m riding, tell 'em «godspeed»

You know the time

You know that all that talk and shit made me work overtime

They wait for it to happen, me, I had to go get mine

I swear my work ethic insane and I overgrind

So when they hating on my accolades, I never mind

People talk shit 'cause it’s way too easy

It’s much harder to apply yourself and try to beat me

Yeah, so I never ever base my happiness on the comments

I’m just working on myself, going harder like I promised

When your fuse getting low

When you’re smoking so much and you escape with the dro

When you’re spending every night inside a different liquor sto'

When you’re driving on the highway drunk, and you know

That you know better, that you know, yeah

That you know better, yeah, that you know

That you can’t escape the places in your mind that you go

I ain’t trying to lose myself to this famous shit

I be on one, thinking 'bout how I really need to change my shit

Seem like all these people so shallow

Every day, waking up is a battle

Make anybody wanna throw the towel

People talk about my life who don’t know me

I’ma ball on 'em, leave my legacy and dip like Kobe (swish)

If you’re tryna hold me down, then don’t say it, gotta show me

When you starting to get success, everything gets lonely

Yeah, can you relate?

Not another second I could waste

Some people misinform, thinking that it’s only fate

It’s more about the way you cooking than what’s on the plate

In my momma crib on the day I lost my pops

Now every day I live, trying to get the bigger knots

Sometime I be just wondering if shit is really worth it

Most people I know crumbling right underneath the surface

Still give my blood, sweat and tears, I was broke for some years

I was caught up on them Percs, I done buried some my peers

I done spent a lot of nights in a room with my fears

I been caught up in depression, I was blaming my career

But I know better, yeah, I know better, yeah, but you know

That you can’t escape the places in your mind that you go

And I ain’t trying to lose myself to this famous shit

I be fucked up, shorty, thinkin' how I really need to change my shit

Oh, look around everything so shallow

Waking up everyday is a battle

Sometimes feel like throwing in the towel

But you know you know better

Yeah, you know you know better, yeah, you know

That you know you know better

Yeah, you know you know better, yeah, you know

Sometimes feel like throwing in the towel

Sometimes feel like all of ya’ll shallow

Sometimes feel like my heart hollow

I’ve often said that I wish people could realize all their dreams and wealth

and fame, so they could see that it’s not where you’re gonna find your sense of

completion

Uh, my accolades are spinning 'round me

The day my father passed away, the day that music found me

It’s crazy how my darkest times the ones that have allowed me

To free my heart and soul and clear the chains that really bound me

I use it as a lesson that everything is for reason, though that reason ain’t

always clear

I’m searching for meanings in my quiet time

Conscious hours, focused on breathin'

I just sold a 'script of Oxycontin to someone demons, I think I’m crazy

Think I’m spending time in the clubs and they need to play me

Think I’m fucking up on the scenes that I need to vacate

Wait, there I go with that swag flow again

The same shit that made some fans call me sell-out 'cause shit ain’t dope to

them

Don’t think they understand artistry is 'bout openin'

Your mind to different waves of experiments and I’m soakin' in

All things subject to change

Just don’t talk about me like my life purpose was in vain

Like I don’t apply the pressure to these hoes in the game

My creativity at higher levels than what I claim

Know the path to greatness is through humility

Will it be my intelligent ways, verses strength and agility

They’ll fuck the world and let 'em die verse vulnerability

Know that God put me here because I got the will in me

No, my purpose here is more than just music

It’s 'bout self improvement, this year I’m blowing up

And having major influence in this shallow fucking rap game

My soul is not contained, within limits of my body

My body is contained within the limitlessness of my soul

One unified field

One unified field of nothing, dancing for no particular reason