Ill - Coldburn

«Honestly, I can’t remember teen dreams

All my (dumb ass) feelings and their meanings

They seem too see-through to be true

All the who’s are there but the whys are unclear»

Thought my steps were clever

Too young to know about forever

You say you don’t want to lose me, but in fact you wished you never had me

My blurred eyes did not see the lie like it was meant to be

Close your eyes and fall asleep, I feel your cold my dear bride

You showed me your darkest side, but could you still hold me tonight?

Your company made me feel the way I wanted to feel

But after all I wasn’t good enough I didn’t appeal

Though it was an illusion, it seemed so real to me

(I) had to burn down my safe spot (to) escape from self-made misery

Came closer to the point where my mind was shed

Now I question the moves I made and the words I said

Since it’s no pain no gain thanks for the gift you gave me

Showed me the disappointments I’m now able to foresee

You had put me in my place and I didn’t know where to stand

Still I feel no thrill and I still believe that life is ill