Meaningless - Deadships

How do I keep my head in this

When all the light goes dark in the end

Am I comfortable or complacent

I can’t wrap my head around it

Will I ever stand and face it

Or am I just scared to death

Malice or melancholy

Anger or apathy

Emotions that are always within reach

Refusing to confront what lies beneath

Skin deep

I’ve got to fill this void within me

Does my place in this world mean anything

Am I a ripple on the water

In a current getting stronger

Or is this a test

A true test of nothingness

How do I keep my head in this

When all the light goes dark in the end

When all this gorgeous is shallow

This home feels so hollow

Is this meaning meaningless

I walk this world unatoned and alone

Terrified of what comes at the end

Of the road

When they carve my name in stone

Is the cost really adding up

Do I deserve to die feeling loved

Will this torment right my wrongs

Will this suffering be enough