Loti - Eidola

In my youth, I felt the earth move underneath my feet

I knew my place and kept time

Blissfully out of harms reach

But time takes its toll and makes fools of the beggars

Hardens all hearts with desired endeavors

Shell games, all routine in repose

I grew tired of hiding in this shelter I built

Of small empty promises and traces of silt

I built it all up for so long

It was only a matter of when I’d find out I was wrong

And learn to let go

I was told I could be anything I wanted to be

But conflicting opinions have led me to see

I was born to be everything you’ve seen in your dreams

A catalyst of providence, a glitch in the seams

It’s not right, but it’s what you need

Now my past is not the residence I choose to reside

And my future’s just a context, ephemeral, implied

It’s not you.

It’s not me

It’s now and everything in between

And that’s why I harbored the will to keep moving my feet

That’s why these calloused lungs are the only way

I know how to speak

So where are you now?

And where were you when you were me?

Have I proven anything?

Or traveled full circle again?

Because I know how much I’ve grown

And the world is not a bitter place

Despite what you’ve shown

I will become everything that you said I could not

And be there for everyone that you forgot

I will lead the way back home