I Went Looking for You - Emily Kinney

I thought I felt you, and the sun was burning my skin

As I climbed the stairs to handshakes and embraces

I thought I saw you in the screens, or heard you in the speeches

Or maybe in the tears running down your best friends' faces

Take it in, one last look

We all hesitantly stood

Take a view, past the church pews

I was just staring at my shoes

But as expected, at the last second

Paper skin and bright white hair

I went looking for you, my friend

But you weren’t there

I guess you’re in the heavens

I guess you’re in the sky

I guess you won’t be coming back to say goodbye

More questions than answers

Your guess as good as mine

And though you’ve lived such a beautiful life

It doesn’t seem fair

When I went looking for you, my friend

You weren’t there

There were whiskey shots and dancing

Handouts with your name

We all kept our composure

Though the world would

Never, ever be the same

In this life the hits keep coming

Oh, our bodies wear and tear

I spent the evening circling, looking

For you, my friend

But you weren’t there

I guess you’re in the heavens

I guess you’re in the sky

I guess you won’t be coming back to say goodbye

More questions than answers

Your guess as good as mine

And though you’ve lived such a beautiful life

It doesn’t seem fair

When I went looking for you, my friend

You weren’t there