Per Aspera Ad Astra - Engelsstaub

My sadness seems to eat up my inside.

Even

Then when I met Jesus the first time on my

Way out in the world.

I begged him just to

Release me in this world if it would be worth

Living.

At that time I thought Jesus is kindly

But now I know he is cruel.

He released me

In a world of baseness, of hate and of

Unbelievable death

Thy eyes shine like the bloody wounds of

Christ.

When I touch you my body fades like

A flower in your light.

I drink wine from thy

Fiery lips and it permeates into my defiled

Body.

Thy eyes are full of love, warmth and

Shelter.

Thy sweet lovers kiss makes my

Tongue liquifying itself.

These are my last

Hours before I became blissful.

The virginal

Death is a torture for life but let the virgins

Kiss thy heart.

Smartened with a thorny crown

My head lies in your fold

At the beginning I thought my doubts were

Thoughts.

But this celebration was only pure

Hate.

Such a delusion and lie leads to your

Devil inside, you want me dying with you and

So I pray only to my dead God