To the Future - Eternia, Moss

Ay, yo'.

I admit to you

Moms raised me alone without a dude so I got some issues

I could say 'I do'

But before I do you should know some things that I have been through

Pops was not a nice dude

He tried to kill my mother this one time.

I was still in the womb

So does that make me the fool?

Cause when I call him up now and then and say «I love you», it’s true

I left home at 15

I was dating this dude nine years old.

It wasn’t as weird as it seems

Cause he treated me better than I had ever been

And to this day that fact’s still the same

The same year I was assaulted with a gun

These dudes locked me in a room, molested me for fun

I swear I would scream, or I’d run

If I told my pops, they’re done, but I thought of their mothers with dead sons

And that’s empathy.

I wish I was cold

Cause if I was I could have stripped for a dollar, but I couldn’t risk my soul

So I didn’t.

I left school, came back, finished

And went to college and graduated with honours, but get this:

Memories my mind conveniently erases

Strange homes, alone.

Got touched in strange places

That’s why I freak out when you touch me

And I’m screaming.

I don’t know it’s you;

it’s just my past evil demons

And they’re plenty.

They haunt me all the time

I ain’t ready for love.

I never knew who he was or when he met me

So I looked for him in all the wrong faces

Got used by more than one dude.

In fact, most of them were faking

So when you talk about making a life

I think about it too.

I killed already.

It’s too late for me, right?

Yeah, yo you could make me your wife

But why would you want to?

I got problems, so go on, go on, go on…