If I Don't Make It - Ghost Key

Ever since I was young

There’s been a cloud hanging over my head

A disease that manifests itself inside of me

A wound that I can’t mend

I have never been fulfilled

A torture that keeps my smile smoldered

A fire in my life that’s burning bright and it only got worse with age

I just wanna know what makes me tick

I wanna know how I got so sick

Honesty out of desperation

It’s never been so hard to admit

Living ain’t easy

Spent all this time in hell

Trying to figure out why I live in doubt

I’m just searching for the truth in myself

Every time I slip, I grab onto my mistakes

I never let myself forget

Like it’s the end of the world

Even thought I know it doesn’t mean anything

My hesitance lies in the faces of the ones who keep me alive

But still I choke, afraid to let them down if my life comes to a close

Instead, I’ll dig

I will search for an answer to the ills inside my head

Unwilling to let these days be my last

I keep fighting knowing I could end up dead

If I don’t make it, at least you’ll have these songs