Becoming Me - Hendersin

Asking Justin, «what we doing tonight?»

Instead of thinking 'bout the chance I might have ruined my life

Might of ruined everything that I worked for

I let my family down, that made it hurt more, damn

Lonely nights I stayed awake

Don’t know how much I can take

Will I bend or will I break?

Yeah

When the day does finally come

I’ll look back on what I’ve done

I can say that I’ve become (yeah), I’ve become me

Fast forward seven years yeah

Cried so many of these tears, yeah

Embraced so many of my fears

I ain’t never been religious but I hope that heaven hears

So many things keep me awake at night

I left some people behind to try to make it right

I booked a couple of shows, I’m tryna make a flight

Looking in the mirror acting happy tryna fake it like

Nights that I tried, wishing that I died

Said I never cried, but a nigga lied (I was so damn wrong)

Made a lot of ends, lost a couple friends

Text it never send, yeah, the one that says «What is going on?»

Asking Justin what he doing tonight

He deployed overseas yeah he true in the fight

And I’m so close to getting what I worked for

I gotta stay focused and just work more, damn

Lonely nights I stayed awake

Don’t know how much I can take

Will I bend or will I break?

Yeah

When the day does finally come

I’ll look back on what I’ve done

I can say that I’ve become yeah, I’ve become me

Stood there, alone and confused

Not really sure what I should do

Where I should go

The only thing I could hear was a cold pale silence

Encompassing my heartbeat

I knew the sky was blue and the sun was shining

My mindset was telling me otherwise

What could I think?

Everything was fleeting away from my grasp

Was I done?

Or was this only the beginning?