Sideways - Hendersin

You know it ain’t easy

For these thoughts here to leave me

There are no words to describe it

In French or in English

'Cause diamonds they fade

And flowers they bloom

And I’m telling you

These feelings won’t go away

I’m talking success, wish that it could suck less

Dollar out of 15 cents but I got a buck less

Been a starving artist like fuck it I need some food

I’m just try not to get screwed, 'cause the industry’s a fuck fest

And I’m a ruler that got a chip on his shoulder

The size of a boulder really just a price I’m getting older

If I told ya I hold the keys to my destiny

Would you say I’m the answer and tell me would you just question me

And fuck your scrutiny like it’s just you and me

And I don’t like the hand they dealt, it’s not suiting me

And I remember back when recruited me

But now I’m moving in, on ecstasy I cause a mutiny

Yeah, it’s my time so I know you’re late

And I got hunger for more, so I don’t wanna wait

I know the past but really I don’t know today

And now I understand why these feelings won’t go away, yeah

They’ve been knocking me sideways

They’ve been knocking me out lately

Whenever you come around me

These feelings won’t go away

They’ve been knocking me sideways

I keep thinking in a moment that

Time will take them away

But these feelings won’t go away

Don’t wanna fade away, fuck it just tryna pave the way

The Monday of September 'cause everyday is late for day

And I been focused like Ford, so every time I record

I’m thinking damn, well I just can’t effort to

To lose another friend, to fight another fight

To work another day, stay up another night

And I was left behind so now I’m not living right

We all get a chance to shine but now they not giving light

At least not to me, I’m feeling like they got to see

The potential I had like the parents who adopted me

Now I walk around my 9 to 5 so awkwardly

My smile’s in denial like a trial they been mocking me

At least they got to be, I think this life is got to me

But I should feel blessed 'cause at least I got a pot to pee in

And really I don’t know what to say

And now I know why these feelings won’t go away, yeah

They’ve been knocking me sideways

They’ve been knocking me out lately

Whenever you come around me

These feelings won’t go away

They’ve been knocking me sideways

I keep thinking in a moment that

Time will take them away

But these feelings won’t go away

You know it ain’t easy

For these thoughts here to leave me

There are no words to describe it

In French or in English

'Cause diamonds they fade

And flowers they bloom

And I’m telling you

These feelings won’t go away