I Called - Jenny Hval

I called you, but only in my mind

What I really did was to

Undress not the body but me and you

Word by word til we almost touched, touched

I, I wanted to say everything

But instead I gave up writing

I gave up sublimation

I gave up trying

But I promise you that I

Didn’t give in

I didn’t give in

I didn’t give in

I just give

So everything cut and flickered

And ever feel a pillow-less seat, a boat, a tampon?

Yes

Is there a difference that you’re so like you

Desire, can you fragment?

It’s like a sentence, hidden, broken down

Into letters

I send you those letters

They are little prisms on your lip

Oh, I’m so in love

Oh, I’m so endlessly in love

I am a sugar-giver

(Like (?) crush)

(Like a clown, you know?)

I am a sugar-giver

I am so in love

Oh, I’m so helplessly in L-O-V-E