Reflection - Jonwayne

I used to give a fuck

A long time ago days were filled with juice

TV and Oreos, if you saw me then

You could never see who I am

I’m 100 years of torture with a bullet in this hand

You can see me now cause there ain’t nothing else left

My brain is a disaster zone, panic in my breath

Give me shelter now, I really need my rest

There ain’t nobody flyer than me

I say a couple words and you can hear the birds sink in the trees

The fetus and the earth glistens of reason

'Til he listens to greed with age

He whistles and bleeds

I would shake your hand but my fingers are picking under the dust

Crumble paper bag, skin in the gust

But who can leave, society is digits and pus

We live in the us, before we’re crippled, picture of us

It’s sickening, God, dreams of dogs biting the dove

I forget the last time that I was living in love

I spend my nights drinking it down and living it up

And by the morning feel the sickness of a blistering cup

Wondering if I’ve been filling it up-up, hitting the ground

Like a thousand pounds lifted but we stitching it up-up

Until the next time I’m feeling limited with the bust

And hit the pillow like a bus till the bars cross

For a minute I forget that I was sucking the gun

There’s no fuss, but some of the time it’s all fuss

There was a time when I felt yeah, the utter presence of hell

Tugging at my coat of arms with the sensitive smell of smoke

Many’d croak where I should’ve fell

Falling in the well of fire, walking the desert of many marksmen

But I couldn’t find my canteen like Carmen cause karma is my last girlfriend

You can see me now cause there ain’t nothing else left

My brain is a disaster zone, panic in my breath

If you saw me then you could never see who I am

I’m 100 years of torture with the bullet in this hand

I’m supposed to tell you that I get laid every day

And stay undefeated but since I was a fetus

Working minimum wages that mind frame

Got these players rhyming in cages, living half life

Radiation’s stuck to the pages

I make records but I want nothing to do with history

The only time I’m feeling fine is in my inner sleep

The only time I’m seeing shine is in the reflection

So I-I Throw Stones at them, I throw sto-o-o-uh-uh

I throw stones at them, I throw stones