Lawn Full of Marigolds - Joshua James

I moved myself west to find a philosophy

To learn my geography at best

Where the mountains are cold

The rain drops it’s tears, i’m told

Amongst the ashes a heart of gold, they say

I guess it’s best to imagine it that way

So i bought me a book to teach me the ways of god

To open my tarnished heart from it

Started praisin' the lord & talkin' in tongues & code;

I did repairs on that broken road back home

I guess it’s better than being alone

And now to death: i’m dying

To love: i’m trying

To god: i’m lying again

And to my ma: i’ve failed you

To my pa: i (always) blamed you

And to god: i have shamed you again

So i moved myself out, i pictured a better home-

A lawn full of marigolds, i guess

I headed back east, started thinking my hope away

Depression was the one to stay since then

Now, i take pills to push it from my head

Yes, i take pills to push it from my head

And now to death: i’m dying

To love: i’m trying

To god: i’m lying again

And to my ma: i’ve failed you

To my pa: i (always) blamed you

And to god: i have shamed you again

To god: i have shamed you again

To god: i have shamed you again

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