Jealous - King Iso, Mackenzie Nicole

I’ve never been an envious person in my life, man

Never been jealous of nobody

But like I did have a conversation with Mackenzie the other day

About like sometimes you do slip into those envious moments to people who don’t

have to deal with

The mental health shit we deal with, you know what I mean

Like how do you not feel that!

Juxtaposition of the weak and the strong

In a world full of so many people

But seem so alone

I fall into comparing myself to few

So elated I’ve waited with nothing else to do

I sit at bay while the ocean moves

Transparent, opaque but we’re both so blue

Look to space, lost within, it seems oh so gloom

Both dark for a star, where I go’s no moon

And I feel like fighting

Betrayed by God and I don’t feel right, crying

While everybody’s smiling

But I’m real life dying to live a life like you do

With mental illness nonexistent, pain is well but few too

Taking some shots like my pistol out

You can just tell the bartender to send more rounds

Pop me an Ativan so I can simmer down

Someone save me before I fucking hit the ground

I know what I feel is envy now

People don’t feel what I feel and that’s really wild

Invisible while I’m standing right in the crowd

When they said ignorance is bliss I get it now

I’m jealous of you

I’m so jealous

Damn I’m jealous of you

So jealous of you

Yep, I’m jealous of you

I’m so jealous

Damn, I’m jealous of you

So jealous

Jealous, yeah

You ain’t never dealt with this pain, yeah

All sunshine no rain, yeah

Your life’s so clean, no stain, yeah

Ain’t no stress, no strain, yeah

Never dealt with this pain, yeah

Fucking up your brain, yeah

Life’s so clean, no stain, yeah

Ain’t no stress, no strain, yeah

So jealous

Chugging this 40 while holding this TEC

Jellysickle like E-40 & Tech

How the fuck he don’t feel this?

Mean no disrespect

I’m as cold as a corpse, I’m a ghost in the flesh

Society has it at home to be next

Preachers outtake me, now bozo’s a threat

For jelly you enroll like the homie I guess

For sure depressed, that ball went over your head

Insomnia when you going to bed

And searching for love, I ain’t holding my breath

I don’t wanna answer my phone or a text

But it’s 3AM and I’m scrolling my thread

All of this fame but still lonely as heck

Don’t check on me but I’ll still loan you a check

One day you’ll be woke to this cloak, how I’m dressed

By then, at the way King Iso’ll be dead

Two baby boys, why I give all my passion

And I stay driven, though mentally crashing

Some people just do not get it I’m asking

Is it wrong to feel this envy I’m having

I’m saving lives I didn’t imagine

Got to be strong, my strength isn’t lasting

Here is the sad plot twist I’ve established

Iso’s a hero that wished it could happen

I’m jealous of you

I’m so jealous

Damn I’m jealous of you

So jealous of you

Yep, I’m jealous of you

I’m so jealous

Damn, I’m jealous of you

So jealous

Jealous, yeah

You ain’t never dealt with this pain, yeah

All sunshine no rain, yeah

Your life’s so clean, no stain, yeah

Ain’t no stress, no strain, yeah

Never dealt with this pain, yeah

Fucking up your brain, yeah

Life’s so clean, no stain, yeah

Ain’t no stress, no strain, yeah

Jealous

Antipsychotic amphetamine, mood stabilizer, SSRI

Can’t be alright

Can’t relate to any of them around

My life is a circus, I feel like the clown

You gave me this life but I’m turning it down

I’m sick of this shit, now I’ll see myself out

I was feeling that I would start the car and close the garage (Garage)

So many thoughts form in my mind

But I won’t say much (I won’t say much)

'Cause you won’t understand

You weren’t dealt this hand

I try not to be mad at you, but I can’t correct my statue

When your happiness is actual

And my energy can’t match you

Tell me

Tell me why?

Pain, yeah

Rain, yeah

Stay here

Strain here

Pain here

Brain, yeah

Stay, yeah

Strain, yeah

Jealous