Sleep It Off - Life Lessons

I’m sorry I was angry

I had a mindset to defend

Getting upset with you

Without much cause

'cause I was jealous of your friends

It felt right to leave

When I doubted everything

And when I did I felt defeat

I knew I’d lost and I was lost

And for the first time

I felt like you’d lost interest

Skipping contacts in your phone list

Passing by my name

Cause I’m not someone that you miss

You just had to make me miss you didn’t you

I just had to fall right back

And give myself no time to think

Before all my emotions get the best of me

I’m spitting out teeth

Gritted and worn to the point

That I don’t know what the point is now

Now I’m full of what ifs

Give me a second to change the subject

To something I know

I won’t forget

Because when we talk

I can feel discomfort in the vibes that we put off

Cut the tension with a knife

And tell me if you think that it bleeds

'cause there are parts of me I don’t want you to see

No I don’t want you to

This is not

The first time I have tried

To reason with myself

For the cowardly nights I spent wasted

Awake always thinking of things that I hate

That I could’ve done different

It’s me

It’s always me

It’s always been me

In my head

This is what we’re supposed to be

And I’ll accept that this is you

If you accept that this is me

Sleep it off

It wasn’t love just a crutch

Make sure the door is shut