Never Will Know - McKinley Dixon, Micah James

Lil nigga what ya say to me?

What ya say to me?

(x4)

Lil nigga what ya say to me?

Riding so low

Never know when I’ll get home

2 AM

Riding alone

Got no time for my phone

I don’t play games on the go

Way too busy being stoned

Couple hits from the bowl

Too bad I got busted for dope

Guess I don’t know how to cope

Everytime I’m awoke

I have fantasies of a rope

Leaving me strangled and choked, got me gasping for hope

Now I’m back coping some more

Cause it keeps me away from the metal

Daily

A dance with the devil

Anxieties, trying me

Wire me, into a pedal

Pressing me

Wishing it would let go

In search of a level of peace

That I’d never reach

Convinced I won’t get there til I’m deceased

Weaving my grief up inside instrumentals

Incase you were wondering dawg

I been over, just floating through time

Taking L’s for my friends

Look my homie in the eyes

Dawg, I love you

I promise you’ll never go homeless again

Thats my word thats on god

And if god get in the way

Imma have to put god to an end

Give a fuck what you say

Too many times I done prayed

With no answer

Ends up as a trend

Riding so low

Never know it

Never wanted anything to do with it

Thrown in it

Had to live through it

I was high

Zooted off the notion that dude in the sky was judging me

Thats why I’m through with it

Bible verses bout as loud as bullets

Spilling out the clip

It’s like ‘blaow,'

I feel it

Got some niggas still up in that gang

That claiming that the way I’m livings like a mental illness

Fuck it all

Fuck it up

Suck it up, Suck it all

What is all this commotion about

Cause I didn’t care when the Ocean was out

I was only concerned when the tide had returned

Stretching for lessons that I’d never learn

That I was one of them yearly, nearly, dearly departed niggas who burn for

something

More real

Feel me dog?

Thoughts revolve round beautifully, frilly, soft, angelic, heavenly cries that

I despised

I’ll just stay laying in wait, til I decide to do something financially viable

with my life

I rap smooth, look good, talk good

Whether academic or hood

But thats just robotics, and now I’m apathetic, and I haven’t forgotten what I

should

Damn

Fuck that shit, man jump on a plane

And get as far away as you possibly can

Tryna find folks that are one in the same

But now I’m starting to think that I’m alone in this game

I don’t know

Was brought up to reach for the kingdom

But shit is something that some nigga thought of

For all of my loved ones

I wish I could unteach what somebody taught em

Phantoms on phantoms

On phantoms on phantoms

But really

It’s not what you thank

All my homies either dead

Or they ass is on the brink

It’s easy for your whole neighborhood to just go up and extinct

When the meteor aiming for ya world got artillery from the local precinct

We yelling that

Gang gang gang gang gang

Hope these words pierce you

They torn through his fleece

And rang all through his brain

Recently this angers seemed to increase

This flame gone catch his mane

Lion rule jungle

But man kills the beasts

Broke his wings light frame

Sorry

Phone anyone but the police

Excalibur, but hand not heavy enough to pull the shit out

What we do now

Neither’s my nigga’s nigga’s

So we get a mischievous nigga to figure it out

Stick them feather tips right into your back

Isn’t the same

Pathetically flap

Keep that shit up

You really might crack

The skyline

And nigga don’t ever look back

I’m the one

I’m the one

I’m the one

Love you daughter

Sorry son

And if I make it out

I’ll send a note

Instructing you

Detailing how to reach the sun

He took a step

He crouched and leapt

And as he fell

He muttered words

His last breathe

He said

I never wanted to be bigger than god, my nigga

For real

I just wanted to outrun my death

And make it out of here