Old News - No Thank You

I don’t remember what you looked like

The day that you took your knife and

Wedged it right between my vertebrae

Poor mental health and chronic pain

Maybe that was just part of quitting

Coming to terms with awful feelings

I can’t pretend that I’m not better off

Thickened skin can’t grow soft

But who am I kidding

I would love to see you again

But I can’t tell the difference between

Straight lines and best friends

And I’d love to use you

Never have to feel again

But I have to hate you

Forgetting versus forgiven

And I have to hate you

And I have to hate you

And I have to hate you