Selfless - Patient Sixty-Seven

These thoughts, only a symptom to pave way

Full-fledged addiction it unfolds and takes shape

Not to the bottle that I know I now crave

But the existence I pray that won’t take me

God you know I’m trying to be better off sober

Trying just to get over the guilt that I can’t get control of

Instilled by pain I can’t get a hold on

If only I could pick myself up

I’d learn to prove you wrong

I’ve been holding back

This feeling that I’m all alone

This infection has changed and reshaped me

I’m ashamed and afraid you’ll replace me

Every breath I take laced with complacency

Plaguing my brain, there’s no escaping this

How have I sunk this low

Failing to breathe

I can’t breathe

I’m losing control

If only I could pick myself up

I’d learn to prove you wrong

I’ve been holding back

This feeling that I’m all alone

If only I could pick myself up

I’d learn to prove you wrong

I’ve been holding back

This feeling that I’m all alone

Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine

My thoughts bury me alive

Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine

My thoughts bury me alive

Look me in the eye, tell me I am fine

My thoughts bury me alive

Bury me alive

If it’s all in my head, why I’m alive all the while

I wish I was dead

Why am I alive

Why am I alive