Latent Eclipse - Poema Arcanus

The autumn comes back to my internal world

I’m defeated by the life

Each dawn awakes with the same tortuous feeling

The same bitter swallow

I want to live no more

With grief in my veins, without hope

I don’t know if you can understand me

If you can help me

Regrettably your ambitious advice doesn’t help me

Because it’s in my blood

The fields of my rest

My grievous redemption

On thorns I will lay numb

I draw a relieving smile while I bleed

Love wasn’t enough

It’s been tainted by pain

Colours have turned into grey

My farewell tastes like resurrection

My days are cloudy, by this almighty depression

Like a latent eclipse

Condemned in my own essence, immune to the happiness

I’m blessed by death