Masochistic Oath - Portrayal of Guilt

Bathing in agony

Covered in shame

These walls cave in

Only myself to blame

Pill after pill, I prepare myself for the morning ahead

My body folds, writhing in pain

No one is here for me

Bathing in agony

Covered in shame

I listen to the running water

It fills the bathtub slowly

I am trampled by thoughts

Weighed down by memories

I lay my head still, welcoming an infinite sleep

My sacrifice for you

An endless cycle of ache

Still conscious, I am paralyzed

Eyes wide open, staring aimlessly

Water begins to fill the floor

Rising slowly, so poetically

I begin to choke, this is what I crave

I am a masochist, in my blood I bathe

Drowning in my own self-hatred

I can feel my lungs as they begin to fail

Bathing in agony

Covered in shame

This burden of living never seems to end

As I lay my body and take the devil’s hand

In this holy water

In this chamber of sin

Born into filth

I die alone