Surfacing - R.LUM.R

I can make a home of undertow

So I don’t have to choose

Let it take me anywhere it goes

Tell me I’m of no use

Well, I’m used to being underneath

The riptide and rising sea

Of general anxiety

It makes me not like me

I want to be more than this

Tendency to resist

The tide that tells me to fix

What I don’t want to be

Spent so long under water

Forgot how it feels to breathe

Used to be autonomic

But something came over me

Maybe a tidal wave or the moon and its gravity

Whatever, it doesn’t matter

I feel like I’m surfacing

I feel like I’m surfacing

I feel like I’m surfacing

I feel like I’m surfacing

I feel like I’m…

Tryna to stay afloat and not look down

Don’t know what I’ll see

But anytime my feet can’t touch the ground

I start panicking

'Cause it feels like it’s bottomless

Drowning my confidence

Navigating out of it

Is the hardest thing for me

But if I’m at the bottom with

The rocks and my promises

How can I be honest with

The man I want to be?

Spent so long under water

Forgot how it feels to breathe

Used to be autonomic

But something came over me

Maybe a tidal wave or the moon and its gravity

Whatever, it doesn’t matter

I feel like I’m surfacing

I feel like I’m surfacing

I feel like I’m surfacing

I feel like I’m surfacing

I feel like I’m surfacing

Spent so long under water

Forgot how it feels to breathe

Whatever, it doesn’t matter

I feel like I’m surfacing