Forever Be Alive - Ryan Caraveo

If today be the day I go

Tell em that I did it big and didn’t live life slow

Tell my bro stay strong

Tell my momma I love her

And I’ll forever be alive in the summer

June 21st

That was a magical night

A hundred thousand people dancing all happy bout life

And when I stepped into that stadium

I was going crazy though

I was living fast

Pumping drugs into my cranium

Ex had me floatin'

And Molly had me rollin'

And cocaine made me feel like I was in control of

My liquor man

So go and pour some more liquor man

Drippin' my throat

I swear it’s gettin' thicker and

Smokes gettin' thicker damn

Oh shit this my jam

Bass hittin' so hard I swear that it can hit your band

Livin' for the principle

And I don’t wanna stick to plans

I just wanna live a little

I just wanna lift my hands

Rollin' I swear to god that I’m rollin'

By three a.m. I ate the whole gram that I was holdin'

Fuck sleep my eyes got no signs of closin'

Hollerin' at girls and no dimes are posing

We’re here bro

Yeah we finally made it here bro

Livin' life like we some fucking super heroes

Call me batman yeah

I’m a bad man know that we did it right if this was the last stand

If today be the day I go

Tell em that I did it big and didn’t live life slow

Tell my bro stay strong

Tell my momma I love her

And I’ll forever be alive in the summer

June 22nd

That was a horrible day

I felt empty

There’s really no more can I say

I got back in the morning at around 8 o’clock

All my friends were in the hotel

In a state of shock

With the curtains all closed

Lying on the ground

I went to say «wassup?»

And no one tried to make a sound

And that’s when John said

«Ryan, this is hard to say but

Last night Anthony he passed away

While we was out partyin'

He was in the room

Because he had fell asleep from all the shit that he consumed»

That’s when I fell backwards my mind in a puzzle

They said he died in his sleep

With no signs of a struggle huh

At least that’s what the coroner said

But I took the same drugs yeah

There should be more of us dead

I should be right there with him

Cause I watched him sniff those lines

And I popped a pill with him

Like 20 different times

And I watched him drink a fifth in like

5 minutes flat

So if that’s the shit that killed him

How can I live with that

I’m feelin' low

So low

I don’t think I’m comin' back

Trying to keep my shit together

I don’t think that I’m in tact

As I sit there tryna pack

To get outta this place

Still high cause I don’t know the amount that I take

Walking through the airport with tears rollin' down my face

Everybody’s staring at me like I’m from outer space and

I swear that was the longest flight home

Questioning everything I’ve ever known

Thinking about the legacy I would have left

If my friends were flying home with one homie less

And it was me that was laying there lifeless

I swear to god its so crazy how this life is

But make it through the day

I might just

Cause I feel him with me here as I write this

So if today be the day that I go

Tell em that I did it big and didn’t live life slow

Tell my bro stay strong

Tell my momma I love her

And I’ll forever be alive in the summer

I said

If today be the day that I go

Tell em that I did it big and didn’t live life slow

Tell my bro stay strong

Tell my momma I love her

And I’ll forever be alive in the summer