It's Never Ok - Sarah Mary Chadwick

I’m just a fool to let you by my side

And you say its cool but I’m never satisfied

Just a modern take

On an 80s great

I wonder what outfit you’re dressing in now

You favoured and shirt now I’m rubbing you out

Just a shifting shape

And just a yawning gape

And its never OK not to love you

And its never OK not to try

And its never OK not to show up

And its never OK to cry

Well I got a lifetime of practice

At keeping the hurting inside

And tying myself to a lover

Who can’t tell I’m even alive

And gone are the moments I put them to task

And gone is the admiration to

Just a faltered

And just a endless wave

And ritualistic the planing i do

We know the steps executed us too

Just a starving waste

And just a carless grace

And its never OK not to love you

And its never OK not to try

And its never OK not to show off

And its never OK to cry

Cause I got a lifetime of practice

At keeping the hurting inside

And tying myself to a lover

Who can’t tell I’m even alive

Well I’m risking it all not to love you

Who knows what’s on the other side

Well I can’t say I’ve ever imagined

But it’s the only thing I haven’t tried

Cause I got a lifetime of practice

At locking the hurting inside

And finding myself only lovers

Who can’t tell I’m even a-

Who can’t even tell I’m even a- a-

Who can’t see I’m even a-

Who can’t see I’m even a- a-

Who don’t care I’m even a-

Who don’t care I’m eve a- a- a- a- a-live