Portrait - Sleye, IOF

You don’t really want this

I don’t wanna force it

I was only open cause I thought you would be honest

I know I was wrong then

(Always said the wrong thing)

I was only hoping you would end up being worth it

I was at my worst then

You already know this

Better off alone

But still I felt you getting closer

Wasn’t what you hoped yeah

I know that i’m broken

I just wanted someone I don’t think that you’re the person

I know I always mess it up i’d rather not get involved

And no there’s never any point but still we’re talking it up

And now i’m feeling really good

It never stay very long

I try and cover up the mess I know I made of myself

And now i’m

Not doing better nah it’s breaking me down

Another chance i didn’t take I wasn’t rid of my doubt

Another plan i should have made but now it’s late and you’re gone

And i’m fucked up all on my own in the dark

By myself in the car

I don’t want this at all

But i’m used to the hole

Where i always end up

Every cause

It was lost

From before i would start

See the mark that i got where you tore me apart

I got your hopes up

Should’ve never done that

Always had our clothes off

Wasn’t really romance

Almost getting choked up

Think of how it all went

I been making progress

I don’t wanna go back

Still I never learn yet

I ain’t going nowhere

Remember when we first met

Know it wasn’t long

And i’m not even who I was then

I was lacking substance

I just had to show them all that I was good for something

It wasn’t ever enough for you but I won’t feel sorry

And you don’t look from a point of view but the one you were born with

I know i said i was over you but i can’t ignore this

And now I sit on my bed in my room cut my face from the portrait