Veil - Stay Inside

It’s by design then

I’m ignoring the worst of the signs

I’m always desperate to apologize

But I abandon it all

I abandon it all

I abandon it all

Abandon it all

I keep it fed

With some last words, it was a theatrical exit

Clearly staying too close, too attached

Is further than its necessary purpose

(This is dead weight

With some last words

With my head straight)

Before I bend

Yes, headfirst now from a safe distance

Bystander—double standard

But of course, I’m staying out of this one

(View from safety

And I’ll always

Fall back safely)

So next time I get the chance

I’ll make sure to let you know

The moment I’ve accomplished something

What an opening line

I recoil when I play it back in my mind

Catch me mothering pride

And enjoying every second

Of attention that I’ve gathered up

My conscience has told me

That I shouldn’t sleep without four alarms

So when I’m gripped at 30

My body will have done more than fertilize

Either way

As I’m losing consciousness

And I stare off from the top of the hill

Of my parents' house

Guilt will be the last thing that sends me down

That soft (soft), soft (soft), soft (soft) slope

I keep it fed

With some last words, it was a theatrical exit

Clearly staying too close, too attached

Is further than its necessary purpose

(This is dead weight

With some last words

With my head straight)

Before I bend

Yes, headfirst now from a safe distance

Bystander—double standard

But of course, I’m staying out of this one

(View from safety

And I’ll always

Fall back safely)

I guess I’m dead weight