Solid - The Holdup

If I had everything I dreamed of

Everything I ever needed

Would it still be hard to breathe in

Tell me would I still not sleep then

If I had everything I wanted

Money and a new apartment

Pretty girls at every party

Tell me would that make me solid

This shit ain’t about the lack of money that I’ve got

This shit ain’t about the lack of women that are hot

This shit can’t be fixed with anything I’ve ever bought

This shit goes way deeper than I think I’ve ever thought

So I lay there

Praying everyday it goes away and

Breathing, my only escape is when I’m dreaming

Pleading, tell me that I’m not the only one

Punish me for something but I can’t remember what

Am I freak cause the only thing I fear is my mind

Am I weak cause I’m tripping when you say I seem fine

Do I need someone else to help me keep it in line

Cause believe me I’m trying, I’m trying

If I had everything I dreamed of

Everything I ever needed

Would it still be hard to breathe in

Tell me would I still not sleep then

If I had everything I wanted

Money and a new apartment

Pretty girls at every party

Tell me would that make me solid

Bottles of some pills on the nightstand

Guess I gotta take 'em everytime I get up (everytime I get up)

Could be taking these for my lifespan

If I don’t ever figure out what’s got me screwed up

So I’m meditatin' on the daily

Doing yoga with some ladies

How come no one’s got the answers

Who the fuck is gonna save me

Guess it’s me and no one else

I’m the one that needs the help

I ain’t throwing in the towel

I ain’t sittin' on the shelf

Am I freak cause the only thing I fear is my mind

Am I weak cause I’m tripping when you say I seem fine

Do I need someone else to help me keep it in line

Cause believe me I’m trying, I’m trying

If I had everything I dreamed of

Everything I ever needed

Would it still be hard to breathe in

Tell me would I still not sleep then

If I had everything I wanted

Money and a new apartment

Pretty girls at every party

Tell me would that make me solid

Guess we’re gonna see what I’m made of, straight up

I’m the only thing that I’m afraid of, baby

Feeling like I’m going through some bullshit lately

Wonder is it me or everyone who’s crazy

Knew I must keep myself distracted, acting

Like everything’s chill until my stash is passing

Trying to accept that peace ain’t everlasting

Tell me that I’m fine is really all I’m asking

If I had everything I dreamed of

Everything I ever needed

Would it still be hard to breathe in

Tell me would I still not sleep then

If I had everything I wanted

Money and a new apartment

Pretty girls at every party

Tell me would that make me solid