River - Year Of The Rabbit

You said it wouldn’t get ugly again

And no you can’t meditate this

You wish it never began

I want to be sober

Yeah I want to be like a river

Just let my life float through me

But I can’t connect with a loaded gun in my hand (at my head?)

You started to worry

You bent yourself to get under the hand

And now with your shipwreck stories

You say you don’t understand