Wonder Killer - Ham Sandwich, Chi-Chi

You made it so far, I’m real proud of you

You reached out for the stars, but got burned and yearned for that boundless

view

Bottled in a jar, walls turn to faces surrounding you

I’m reaching out my arms, but it hurts cause they’re not surrounding you

You were in the darkest of nights

And I failed in providing that spark of a light

All the pain you would hide, it had scarred you inside

It’s insane, never thought that you would part with your life

Always stuck in my mental, never cared for it much

And I would struggle to chill, I know that I wasn’t enough

Embodied the hurt and I guess for what it was worth, they walked on me like I

was dirt

And I trid to be someone that thy would consider perfect, you’re the one that

made it worth it

Tell me that I can restart, so I thought with my heart, didn’t get me too far

Know that we can shine bright, but only when it’s this dark and

We can show them new light, stay up late with this stars

Even if it ain’t right, I just wanna know who you are

'Cause I’m all alone in my dome, I’ve been trapped inside

Wish I had a hope, but I don’t, barely even try

Can’t stay optimistic if I did it my entire life

Treated like I’m different, I’m just sick of feeling all the time

Need it to get out my mind, just want someone by my side

Overthinking every little thing like it was do or die

Who am I?

Scared to share the truth of what I keep in mind

I’ll be fine if you promise it won’t end in suicide

I was a lonely kid, surrounded by faces in crowded spaces

Haters and fakers, the world ain’t do me no favors

And now I’m dealing with the loss of my only friend

They don’t wanna see me suffer, bottle up and hold it in

Heart is growing cold again, statues crying, fighting through the trauma

I just tell her I’mma see her later, living through the saga

Breaking others out their shells, I’m coming out of my own

But not my own, new circle round me making me grow

I need to atone, but I also need to move on

So much I need to improve on

I been beside myself, they turn a blind eye, tortured by the evils of their

ignorance

Tell me I should get a grip, I get a grip, and put em in the sediment

Dust settling, I’m tired of coping, I know I’m broken, but I’m working on it

And every day is a lesson, that’s what I’m learning on it

Armed with a reminder of my past self

Closer to the future every time I hear the pass bell

If I bring it back again can I finally put an end to these

Wonders, Wonders, to these Wonders, Wonders

What’s left for me to find?

When can I put behind these

Wonders, Wonders, all these Wonders, Wonders

Feels like I’m lost out in space and I can’t find my way, but I’ll try

gravitate to these

Wonders, Wonders, to these Wonders, Wonders

Nothing feels real anymore, numb to the pain, I barely feel anymore for these

Wonders, Wonders, all these Wonders, Wonders

There’s time left for me, I’ll make amends

Make sure that the system never fails again

It aches, but then I guess you had it worse

It never feels real until they’re leaving in that hearse

The schools made us think that we were by ourselves

And the police made us terrified to cry for help

Know your friends don’t exist if they’re not IRL

And you should just be fucking grateful you’re alive and well

Trust me, you’re not by yourself

Feel free to cry for help

You’re alive and well

And only you can find a Wonder deep inside of yourself